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New Year Resolution/Goals (:

   It is that time of year again where we all make resolutions/goals for the year ahead. Some of us actually complete all of these goals and some of us struggle. Whether we complete one of them or a handful of them the fact we have tried to do them should make you proud.

Don’t let the fact that you may have a few goals left get you down, re add them to your list for the year after, but just try and complete them 110% more this time.

 

So here is my list for 2013, if I am honest this is the first time in a very long time I am making my self a list. My reasons: well this year(2012) I realised a lot had to change, some of them have been asked of me and some of them are personal goals I know I need to do to make the atmosphere and life around me better. So here is my list…

 

1.   Loose 6 Stone/84pounds or more.

2.  Eat a lot healthier, more salad, and more vegetable.

3.  Buy a passport; I have been saying for a few years now that I need to buy one, but with the plans I have I need to buy one.

4.  Have at least 1 holiday (hopefully the USA); my last holiday was in 2008. A lot has happened since then and I think it is time I have this holiday. The only holidays I have had in the past were with my mum and dad, which meant the world to me. In a way not having a holiday scared me a little bit because it was them times that meant the most to me, but this year it will be kind of an accomplishment.

5.  Start off my tattoo sleeve; I am addicted to tattoos, they are sexy and a piece of art. My sleeve is not going to random, everything means something and I want to start it off.

6.  Get rid of at least 2 debts; after my mum passed away I was left with her debts and to get rid of them would be one less worry on my shoulders.

7.  Redecorate my house; my house has been decorated for, well I do not know. My mum and dad decorated it and it has been the same since. So I want to give the house my own touch every room needs doing. But I least want my hallways. Living room and my back garden need totally revamping.

8.  Join the gym; all part of my new transformation. This includes: exercising at least 5 times a week, and swimming at least 2 times a week.

9.  Become more confident in my new skin; also apart of the new transformation. I have never been confident in my body and something defiantly has to change.

10.  Become a bit more confident with fashion; being a photographer I see people wearing some amazing clothes, yet I know I could never fit into them. I look at clothes and shoes like any other person and wish I could wear them. So this year I want to be able to be confident with fashion and wear lovely things.

11. Complete at least 20 photo shoots; mainly on a weekend as weekends will be the main free times I will have.

12.  Spend at least one Saturday a month with my nephews; obviously I will spend as much time with them as I possibly can, but with work it is going to be hard. However one Saturday a month I want to spend the whole day with them and do what ever they want to do.

13.  Learn the guitar; I have a guitar sitting upstairs which was my uncle; I have had it for years just sitting there. I sing and I song write but doing those things sometimes seem a little useless. So 2013 I want to learn the guitar, write a couple of songs but also hopefully get them recorded a little bit.

14.  Complete my novel; obviously I have started this goal but the goal is to complete it. I also want to send it off to America to a publishing company. Fingers crossed right.

15.  Save £2,000; I love to save money, just so that when I need it, it is there. So I want to save this money so that I can start a savings account just so that if I ever become stuck I will know I have it there.

 

So yeah, everyone has these resolutions and goals. Lets stand up and fight them together (:

We can do this do not give up.

Happy New Year everyone.

Christmas

Is not about presents to me.
I have had so many people this year apologize for not getting me a present or a bigger present. In all honesty I do not mind at all. I have never been a present fan and in all honesty because of my religion Buddhist… presents mean nothing. A simple card will make me happy.

Christmas is also about the people who you have around you, your loved ones. This year all I want around me is my loved ones.
I lost my Mum last year and I lost my father in 2004, so I have had to come to terms with missing the people I want most around me. I have my sister, her boyfriend and her children and this year I have an even more widened family surrounding me. I have my boyfriend Mike and his family who fill that gap in my heart even more. These things make me a lot more happier than a present as they are the best presents I could have.

I wish I could have my parents here with me, I know they will be in my heart always so for that reason they are even more close to me than I could ask.

So this year for Christmas I will be thinking of the people I wish I could have around me, but also the people who have absolutely no-one surrounding them right now.

This Christmas don’t moan about the lack of presents or how small they are or the fact you didn’t get the one thing you wanted.

Just be thankful you got the people around you, who care about you the most.

- Lou Sonyak

Mar 1
killingkittensiseducational:

arianacherise:


12 year old Brittany Smith, a Roanoke-area middle schooler, was kidnapped by her mother’s boyfriend after apparently witnessing him murder her mother earlier this week. They are driving a silver Dodge Neon with Virginia license plate #XKF-2365; if you’ve seen them, please call your local police.
http://www.roanoke.com/news/breaking/wb/270121
Please reblog!

Guys it only takes a few seconds to reblog, please don’t just scroll past this.

You guys probably think this won’t make their blog look pretty anymore. You’re wrong. It shows you care. Just reblog. Think about how this would make you feel if you were that little girl.

killingkittensiseducational:

arianacherise:

12 year old Brittany Smith, a Roanoke-area middle schooler, was kidnapped by her mother’s boyfriend after apparently witnessing him murder her mother earlier this week. They are driving a silver Dodge Neon with Virginia license plate #XKF-2365; if you’ve seen them, please call your local police.

http://www.roanoke.com/news/breaking/wb/270121

Please reblog!

Guys it only takes a few seconds to reblog, please don’t just scroll past this.

You guys probably think this won’t make their blog look pretty anymore. You’re wrong. It shows you care. Just reblog. Think about how this would make you feel if you were that little girl.

Jan 8

Mum

I love my Mum more than words can describe, I find it weird that after losing someone you realise how much they actually mean to you. 

People would always say that I was like my Mum and I would fight against it and say no I wasnt. 
Yet the other day I realised how much like my Mum I actually am. She was my bestfriend and I have only just come to realise that. I never hated my Mum like I use to proclaim, I love my Mum more than anything. I am actually proud to call my Mum “My Mum” ask me this a year ago and I would of disagreed. But like I say… losing someone makes you open your eyes and realise the things you now see.

R.I.P Mum, hope you and Dad are looking after each other up there <3 

Nov 5

Name A Rose!

I just found this thing where you can name a rose after someone and then get it registered and you get the seeds to plant these roses. The name you decide to register it goes to the British Library and forever stays there.
I have decided in dedication, since my Mum & Dad both loved flowers etc that I am actually going to get a ROSE dedicated to them and name it J & F. Sonyak. - Long name I know but it will be worthit :)

I never got to do anything really nice for them and I think I would really like to do this for them. <3

R.I.P Mum & Dad; I love you both <3

too many funerals.

I know I sound like a right winge, but I am really sick of everyone passing away lately.
1st was my mum’s partners niece
2nd was my mum :( <3
and now, 3rd is my aunt..

this year has to be one of the worst years around and I think I will be glad when it is finally over because if it gets any worse I fear that my own health right now and state of mind might get worse. I am so fragile at the minute that I cant stop crying, or getting angry at any moment. I keep having mini breakdowns and it’s getting to the point where I am literally scared I am going to have the most serious one that’s going to get me on tablets, which is the last thing I want.

the one thing I ask for is for this year to bring me some good news from now on, or good opportunites.

My best friend is moving to SA(south africa) next month :( I wish she didnt have to leave.. :(

Needs a job

so bad.
I am sick of life at the moment. Losing my Mum has really made life shit. I still cant come to terms with it all. One day I will.
However I do need some distractions with life at the moment, I need a job.

I am giving my self 10 years to make it. With a successful career, famous.. just life in general.
I am going to start making some music soon because I miss making it, also going to get intouch with the music industry guy i know see if he can hit me up in a studio soon.
Gotta go docs tho to talk about weight, :( bad times.
Next year I want to go to america to travel.. and I will.

But I NEED A JOB!!! >.<
Job center tomorrow I take it then :(

sorry for being a moaner guys.

Sep 1

Why In The Hell

Would I want to go to another funeral on Monday, when I only had my Mum’s funeral on Friday just gone.

I am on the verge of a break down, a seriously big one, what does the geeza want… me to literally have a break down?!

I have respect for the family that have lost their daughter, mother, aunty, but I can not do it.. I am here for you but I cant go.

Some people are really inconsiderate!

I’m Back

kinda.

So a Hiya from me. It was my mums funeral on Friday and it was beautiful, everyone came back to my house after and got a tad wrecked lol :)

I do miss my mum more than I originally thought I would, I am ever so glad that she is in a happy place now back with my father.

My sister is having a baby boy called Jai, I cant wait for him to be born <3

I do hope you are all alright and have had a nice holiday :)

Aug 9

Wont Be Online For A While

basically to put it straight. my Mum passed away yesterday.

So got funeral arrangements to sort out with my sister and the house to sort as to how i can afford to live there etc.

I am just happy she is now with my daddy in heaven. Back together at last.

R.I.P LOVE YOU!

ps: to everyone who has lost someone, i am sorry for your loss.